Nice, Obedient and Accommodating

I No Longer Accept Good as

Nice, Obedient and Accommodating

The patterns that plagued me came from a childhood

of disregarding my needs and my feelings in order to stay “good”.

I spent my childhood focused on making sure

that others thought of me as “good“. 

To my parents, good meant nice, obedient and accommodating.

I feared their anger if I acted in ways they considered “bad”.

I mostly feared my mom wouldn’t give me her love, or she might not believe I loved her. My life seemed to depend on staying “good”. 

When I refused to marry and left the church, I also refused to

define myself by that definition of “good” any longer.

I still wanted to think well of myself, so as “good”. Only I didn’t know what good meant anymore and not sure I ever did.

I now choose to use words like centered, kind, curious, present

to define the state I chose to live in.

See Spiritual Warrior for a deeper sense of the practices

I choose to center and ground myself in the here and now.

“Replacement for Good/Bad” gives some ways to change the language.